That song keeps ringin in my head....
"Do i let myself go and feel the rain... Or should i play with caution and refrain? Whatever i do, when it comes to you... I know sometimes love plays the part of a fool...."
That's so true. Guys are just as tough as girls are.
What's with the coldies and the hotties... And the on and off buttons..? Maybe they should make up their minds, yeah? ;) Tell me YES or NO. Wouldn't that be easier for both parties? But I have a confession.. sometimes it's nicer being neither. =) okay, okay... my bad =)
Anyway, I've got one question...
What if i died tomorrow?
This question was playing around in my head for the past few days... I accidentaly cut my wrist whilste picking up broken peices of glass on my bedroom floor the other day... The blood wouldn't stop flowing.
What if the blood continues to flow and never end? Would I bleed to death? What if a microscopic sized glass splinter entered my blood stream and begin to prick my vains? Then I'd have internal bleeding! Would I die?
The first thing that came to my mind were the ones I love. What will they think? "Keshia committed suicide!" or... "Oh my gosh! Who killed Keshia?". All that didn't really matter... The thoughts that worried me were like, did I make a big enough impact among my friends? Did I make a difference to their lives? Would anyone miss me? What would they do? Would they be sad? Or would they just go on with their lives as if nothing had happened?
Okay, maybe I sound a little insecure, but these thoughts DID run through my mind. It made me think about how fragile life can be. Just because I accidentally cut my wrist. Something hit me though, God made me realise the real meaning of the book of Ecclasiastes. It was never meant to comfort lazy people and it was not meant to be taken out of context! I guess it was just for people to know that life's struggles and strife need not be taking too big of a toll on us. To apply it in MY life, I have been studyin like crazy for the past 2 years for a 9-day examination that is comin in less than 2 weeks from now. Imagine, just 2 days ago, I could have died.
Hahahaha.
Now, wouldn't that be a waste of energy. I studied hard for a atupid exam that everybody's freakin out about, and I die 2 weeks before the exam. Hahahahaha... I can't help but to laugh. So, the exam is not -that- berbaloi after all... It's just an exam... It's man-made! It's peices of paper that dictate your future! But, it matters, doesn't it?
Sigh...
Oh well.. life goes on.
cheers, my friends...
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